Friday, February 22, 2008


Ever so many times, does the feeling of “an infinite longing to a brilliant life bounded by finite capacity” is what knocks us down, more so with an increasing tempo and a greater urge to have more, with every passing day; as we chase the ticking clock of the heart, the mind and the body thereof.

That longing for certainty (in the heart), sense of control (in the mind) and endurance (of the body) pushes us into a mindset of where we seem to believe (or rather strived / strive infinitely) that we know almost everything about everything. Can we really be certain about anything at all?

There seem to be so many answers for everything that could possibly be questioned about, except that – (most often) We do not know , what is the question that is really bothering us – and there we plunge into the depths of philosophy(to the heart) , causality(to the mind) and pain (to the body) to place ourselves into of the following paradigms –
  • Why am I here (heart)
  • What am I doing (mind)
  • How long (body)
Now, these paradigms sound like the most basic of questions that pass before us a thousand times every day, but seem to change in meaning with every passing moment – the answers seem to be changing at a gazillion times faster than the questions themselves!

There are voids, there are holes, there are craters and what fills each of these at different points in time, defines us as to what we are, in that time frame against the vast reference of the infinite clock.

What am I today – a sojourner in a desert of infinite ideas, thirsting for questions, that settle the soul in the cool calm of knowing that the way counts.
Dedicated to my friend Chitra - Battle on dear :)

Friday, February 08, 2008


I was thinking of all the offbeat statements, I heard about me – rather funny, interesting and hmm a hyperbole.

One of my (girl)friends describing me to her boy friend – John is really sweet, extremely chivalrous, just is there when you need him very pally, and you can trust him always not to take advantage of you, and does not hit on anyone or every – very very sweet –
The Hyperbole - Her friend – sure he is not Gay? …nah just asking :)

One of my colleagues discussing me over coffee – How can this guy be so cold and calculating (hmmm.. I mean in a positive way), and get away with utter indignation to rules, and yet win people at work? Huh!!
The Hyperbole - Reaction – he is just an asshole who is difficult to hate – reason, bugger is intelligent (that I still am to figure out if he really is!!)

Whoa man – this fella is equipped with so many facts – he knows his subject and takes people to task –
The Hyperbole – Hello – I really think he is successful because he has better (English) language skills.

How can you think like this – I wish I was as analytical as you – Can you help me leran this thinking thing?
The Hyperbole (in the same breath) –actually, I am glad I cant – you actually are a potential terrorist – you just went to Sunday school a lil too long.

He always calls me just when needed, and seems to be there ever in the nick of time.
The Hyperbole – Actually, he is very lazy to write a mail – ever tried getting a letter from him ?? You see!

He drives really well, and really fast and very skilled
The Hyperbole – He just can’t seem to accept the fact that another car can be ahead of him - :P

Thursday, February 07, 2008


After a long long time, a really long time – I feel alone - The word is alone, and not exactly lonely!

It maybe the set of events over the last 2 weeks, where I was the only soul in a 600 seater movie hall, or finally getting bugged of living and working out of a hotel / home for the last 8 months, and not made any new friends, and in general everyone including me have got a lil more busy with life.

It maybe that my intolerance to nonsense and general lack of intelligence in everything that kept a lot of people at bay

It may be that I just need someone for more than a friend

It may be that you want to share a hundred new ideas, but don’t find one to intellectually debate, but in a role where I am only mentoring a few promising souls

It may be I got lazy in life to do something refreshing

It may be that I am bereft of sleep for the last 2 nights and …

Still – alone :)

Wednesday, February 06, 2008


After ‘Glade’, it’s the gentle breeze that really refreshes - I start quoting this:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” ~ Maryanne Williamson

Ever wondered how simply we brush the idea of a fairy with tiny little wings, and yet in our deepest of hearts wished we had one lil fairy that we could hide – what is it that really scares us? – the “stupidness” of the fairy or the possibility of immense power, if it be real?

Most often than not, what stops us from being what we want to be is - our fear of what we can really possibly be – when was the last time we really woke up scared that our big dreams might become a reality? Well – if it is a long time – we have already killed a great deal of ourselves!

What is life if we cannot dream a dream that can scare us to the possibility of it being a reality – as for everything else that makes us feel nice and comfortable – well, there are 6 Billion others, whom you have for friends – or just be that one, who can have his/her identity as one unique individual.

Do I mean to say – Go ahead, everyone be successful – nah – you see the quote above really defines success in perspective – in our OWN perspective !

It’s about time to let the light shine, and let the soul awaken and breathe easy – you know what it does? – you will become the Zephyr. (P.S – I hate the idea of a GOD of wind but use the word for the context)

Glade I wonder, Zephyr I be !

Those closest to my heart call me Whirlwind !

Dedicated to Nada – get you small wings dear :)