Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Acts of Mischief

Genuine repentance for acts of mischief should not be encouraged

~ Xai 2007

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

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Men - Phew!

Fertile Mind

It’s amazing how fast the human mind can think of so many possible variations in a nano second – and constructs such amazing (~ wicked) stories within a blink of an eye!

It amazes even more, how the same mind, can quick freeze to “numb”, when one is switched off, and is not in the ‘mood’, or just does not want to think.

What is it that state of disposition which controls how we think? Is thinking really voluntary? Or are we just always reacting to an ever changing environment - which essentially means, that if you place yourself in the right environment, you shall (or atleast your mind) shall flourish, and move to a sense of well being (the mind’s sense of well being ~ ala able to think in many different ways)

What is that we really miss?- the mind not thinking in a hundred different ways, or , that we can’t get it to think the way we want a hundred times over ?

Sunday, February 25, 2007

A tale of two generations

The current generation speaks:
I am spaced out guys(~ parents / married siblings), just wanna be alone for sometime, and look, I really don’t like those aunties, whose sole mission is to ‘settle’ me in life – I can take care of myself, and besides, I have seen about a quarter century of life too.. Just curious, do you guys really think I am so stupid, that I can’t take care of myself? Just wonder, I am the same one you flaunt off, of the nice kewl education, great job, and a reputed company that trusts a few Million $ to my decision! Phew!

Does that sound like the story of every guy/girl in her twenties, whose only sin, is that they are young? Being young means, you are prone to irrational decisions, raging hormones that screw your head, and every one except you (or your other friends in their twenties who are single) knows what to do!

That’s the generation I relate to, cos I am in my twenties, and see being fixed up, with every potential girl at any family function (or) am the topic of the discussion – Some one wants to do my financial planning (they do not know what current market realities are), some one wants to do my personality training (hmm, have they ever seen more than 3 personalities other than their spouse, the ideal child and him/herself), some one who is the epitome of ‘know more than you dude’ (oh, yes – never stepped out of the city s/he studied, worked & lived in, worked in a unicellular organization, and all the big circle of friends they have is 80% relatives, 19% clones of themselves, and 1% who is really different, but painfully put up with for harmony sakes), some one who teaches behavior (I guess, they let out their frustrations of a messed up life, frustrated partners, and underachievement by giving behavioral gyan, for what is behavior but the shaping of how we respond in an environment, and yes, they are from a different(alien?) environment!), and someone who is just the giggle master, watching the game of baiting and being baited!

The yester generation speaks:
What’s wrong with this fellow/felle, does s/he not understand that, all we really want is his/her good and we, yes WE, YES WE, YES YES WE, and know what that good is. After all, I have seen the same life, twice over, once as myself, and now in my child!

If the whole world turns against him/her, we, we, we, we the family, we alone, but none will stand by him/her, and do everything needed, to help him/her.

Does s/he not remember, I am the one who cleaned his/her pooh, nurtured, helped walk, taught, and been by his/her side all along? How many sleepless nights and how many sacrifices that went into s/he being what s/he is now, they will never know till they have a child of their own?

Do they even understand what Love is? NO, NO, NOOO, NOOOOOOOO.

S/he is an idiot personified, but somehow does well in their career (ofcouse, It’s bcos, I helped him/her learn the alphabet, and guided him/her in his/her grade 9 math, and decided s/he should study mathematics, instead of pursing some stupid, useless, non-paying adventure / sport / music streams)

Does s/he not understand family, the importance of family, the love, the bonding, the affection, the blood, the sweat, the stink, the pain, and the solace of (whatever) us?

God! – I see this child of mine, as the epitome of my failure in ‘shaping’ him/her to be the dancing doll! What was wrong in the way I brought up this child?

That’s the generation; I don’t relate to, but see them every day, and are the current reality of life!

Connecting the dots:

In a rather interesting conversation, I suddenly say to one my senior colleagues (who now has two (= Infinity -1)) teenagers to deal with.

John: I guess you are a good mother
She: J hmm, thank you (blush, relief, happiness), you know what, I don’t think my kids think so
John: Well, that’s obvious, all children think the same – that their parents can do a tad (read as infinitely better) if only, they gave those small needed spaces, and allowed us to grow
John:…. And I add, that all parents think (esp when children start taking their own big decisions), that their children as the stupidest lot – who do not know any real thing (the things parents know) in life.
She: {silence}
She: {silence}
She: {silence}
She: Should tell you this – When I was in university, I penned an essay that won me the first prize. The topic was – “Ideal Parents” – My mom, at the point in time said, “I’ll preserve this, and show you this, when you are a parent of a child, as old as you are now”. John – I am ashamed to say this, but I guess, I am not even 10% of what I have written – I wonder, what happened to all that! Really wonder

Let me illustrate some of the common variables between both the generations:

It’s clear and established that we are two very different species – My questions are:

  1. Why do we (both generations) frustrate each other so much with no common ground?
  2. Can’t we take a NO as a NO and a YES as a YES – why play the complex emotional, rational, logical, well wishing games, till we get what we want?
  3. I wonder what ever happens to all those siblings who would have drawn blood for freedom, once they get married. Sister become grand mom, bro becomes grand dad- suddenly, we the single ones, sound like idiots!
  4. Yester Generation – were you ever in your 20’s - at least, we don’t think so – cos, you always sound 50+ (even if you are 23 with the difference that you are married) – do you remember the quest for life, the yearning to be something, the fire, the want, the need ? sorry - I am talking to the wall
  5. Current Generation – hmm, are we all set to become the next gen? hee hee – don’t blame anyone, for what you are and will be - no one owes you anything, and your don’t owe anything to anyone – make your life, move your ass, take your decision – too much to ask – if yes, then go become the classic good yester gen dude.
  6. God – How do you put up with all this nonsense?
  7. Can’t we love each other for what we are, for what we can be, and for what we cannot be too, instead of constantly trying to make the world go according to what you believe is ‘right’

There is really no tale - just two generations – that’s all!

P.S: Do excuse any spelling / grammatical errors - just one shot feed, no reviews, no re-reads – just straight from the …..

Friday, February 23, 2007


Rather pensive about this ‘experience” thing in life in general, at work in some specificity, about relationships with curiosity, and in thought philosophically. Intriguing that this is one word, we use so very often, without any real thought. The sad part is that, each of those instances create another experience, and takes us a step (deeper, higher, lower??) further on the ‘experience’ pathway.

Quoting Immanuel Kant..

Experience is no doubt the first product of our understanding, while employed in fashioning the raw material of our sensations. It is therefore our first instruction, and in its progress so rich in new lessons that the chain of all future generations will never be in want of new information that may be gathered on that field.

Nevertheless, experience is by no means the only field to which our understanding can be confined. Experience tells us what is, but not that it must be necessarily as it is, and not otherwise. It therefore never gives us any really general truths, and our reason, which is particularly anxious for that class of knowledge, is roused by it rather than satisfied.

General truths, which at the same time bear the character of an inward necessity, must be independent of experience,—clear and certain by themselves. They are therefore called knowledge a priori, while what is simply taken from experience is said to be, in ordinary parlance, known a posteriori or empirically only.

So my question is, can we ‘nurture’ experiences, or we are all just part of a chain of events, leaving different experiences, that just shape what we are? Does that mean, I have a series of bad experiences, and subtly, am shaped to be a wretched soul, who never to start with wanted either to have a bad experience or worst case, become a wretched soul?

Still thinking, and will post my point of view in another blog post.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Winds of Change 2

I am the ‘Whirlwind’ storming and free
Swirl the wind in my palm; a desire!
Crossing paths that do a ravage spree
Hold up the wind? Blow an ire?

Should I hold up, should I blow?
Either is my identity, along any flow

Is there ever calm for a whirlwind
Heard I that, there is one
In the eye of the whirlwind
Calm, only if in the center, there is one

Gentle is the breeze for one I love
Whirlwind still a force, humbly bow

Blown, rested, stormed, soothed
Long I for calm, and welcomed love
Calmed, not subdued, but soothed
Whirlwind, I am, forever and now

Winds of Change.........

I folow the Moskva
Down to Gorky Park
Listening to the wind of change
An August summer night
Soldiers passing by
Listening to the wind of change

The world is closing in
Did you ever think
That we could be so close, like brothers
The future's in the air
I can feel it everywhere
Blowing with the wind of change

Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow dream away
in the wind of change

Walking down the street
Distant memories
Are buried in the past forever
I folow the Moskva
Down to Gorky Park
Listening to the wind of change

Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow share their dreams
With you and me
Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow dream away
in the wind of change

The wind of change
Blows straight into the face of time
Like a stormwind that will ring the freedom bell
For peace of mind
Let your balalaika sing
What my guitar wants to say

Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow share their dreams
With you and me
Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow dream away
in the wind of change

Theory of Relativity

"...other disadvantages of being married include the Theory of Relative-ity"

~ credits to malavika for the theory

Air of superiority

Don’t make light of a Horse’s ass, it has dictated the future of a few thousand years of development - read on

The Space Shuttle and the Horse's Rear End

Say friend, did you know that the US Standard railroad gauge (distance between the rails) is 4 feet, 8 1/2 inches.

That's an exceedingly odd number. Why was that gauge used?
Because that's the way they built them in England, and the US railroads were built by English expatriates.

I see, but why did the English build them like that?
Because the first railway lines were built by the same people who built the pre-railroad tramways, and that's the gauge they used.

Well, why did they use that gauge in England?
Because the people who built the tramways used the same jigs and tools that they used for building wagons, which used that wheel spacing.

Okay! Why did their wagons use that odd wheel spacing?
Because, if they tried to use any other spacing the wagon wheels would break on some of the old, long distance roads. Because that's the spacing of the old wheel ruts.

So who built these old rutted roads?
The first long distance roads in Europe were built by Imperial Rome for the benefit of their legions. The Roman roads have been used ever since.

And the ruts?
The original ruts, which everyone else had to match for fear of destroying their wagons, were first made by the wheels of Roman war chariots. Since the chariots were made for or by Imperial Rome they were all alike in the matter of wheel spacing.

Thus, we have the answer to the original question. The United States standard railroad gauge of 4 feet, 8 1/2 inches derives from the original specification for an Imperial Roman army war chariot.

And the moral of the story is Specifications and bureaucracies live forever.

So, the next time you are handed a specification and wonder what horse's ass came up with it, you may be exactly right. Because the Imperial Roman chariots were made to be just wide enough to accommodate the back-ends of two war-horses.

So, just what does this have to do with the exploration of space?
Well, there's an interesting extension of the story about railroad gauge and horses' behinds. When we see a Space Shuttle sitting on the launch pad, there are two big booster rockets attached to the sides of the main fuel tank. These are the solid rocket boosters, or SRBs. The SRBs are made by Thiokol at a factory in Utah. The engineers who designed the SRBs might have preferred to make them a bit fatter, but the SRBs had to be shipped by train from the factory to the launch site.

The railroad from the factory runs through a tunnel in the mountains. The SRBs had to fit through that tunnel. The tunnel is slightly wider than a railroad track, and the railroad track is about as wide as two horses' behinds.
So a major design feature of what is arguably the world's most advanced transportation system was originally determined by the width of a horse's ass.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

I am awake

At last I am awake!

Hmmm that sounds like I have sleeping for ages, actually finally got much needed sleep, and feel awake now.

Almost back to normal - I guess, my back to normal ain't really good to many :P

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Monday, February 05, 2007

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Quote of the day - Life

The tragedy of life is what dies inside a man while he lives

~ Albert Schweitzer

Friday, February 02, 2007

sweet and bitter

If you find honey, eat just enough,
too much of it, and you will vomit.
~ Proverbs 25:16
Some of the best things in life are sweet, but one needs to make sure that, we do not indulge to an extent, that you will get ill, and sweet feels bitter.


Thursday, February 01, 2007

Living by external validation

Why is that, a good lot, live by the norm, that they, their actions, their self-worth need to be validated by an external source?

For a good long time, I believed that this is a phase every one goes through at some point of time, and to some extent. I was right till I discovered a complete set of people, who define their very 'existence by validation'.

Now that set me thinking, hmm.. WHY ? and this is what I realize - most people who exist (ya not live) by the external validation syndrome, are people who could never really accept themselves for what they are - Leave alone the world, they can't accept themselves the way they are. What appears as a defense mechanism, to give a boost to the self (~ validation), sometimes (or most times) mutates these people into, defining themselves by what they are not.

The moment I define myself by what I am not, I am left with really nothing to define myself by what I am really am, and the reason being, there would not be left too many things that are not really common to all mankind in general. The only things that would probably left are - I am a human, a good, rational, compassionate, loving soul !

Sounds Like Crap right, yes Exactly - Its crap.

One is eternally running away from what they are not, for fear of being what they don't wanna be - The other is running towards what they are and what they can be.
The difference is , the former is an exhausted, frustrated and angry soul with himself and the world around, the later, is the one who really has the smiles and the world with him smiles.

Quote of the day - Cynic

The difference between a pessimist and a cynic is
the pessimist still has some hope
the cynic does not believe hope exists

~ John 2007