Thursday, December 21, 2006

Live your day

When at 27, should behave 27
When at 18, should behave 18
When at 40, should behave 40

hmmm... sounds a lil odd to say, but true.

We forgot that we behaved just our age till about we were 12 yrs old, and yet we grew!

How come suddenly the equation changed, that behaving ahead of your age became kewl. Just imagine if you behave like a 10 yrs old, when you were 10 months old - hmm, the beauty of being a baby would have been lost.

So, when I am 27 and behave like a 30 yr old, the beauty of being young is lost.

When I behave ahead or behind my age, irrespective of how ppl percieve, we lose the charm of being at that age, at that time - a day gone when I am 27, is a day gone forever.

I believe, somewhere along the growth path, we have exchanged the meaning of "being responsible" to "acting old". "Being responsible does not mean acting old.

Being responsible is being responsible, and thats imbibed over the years of life, upbringing, education, value system and faith. Just be responsible, don't need to act, and win the laurels of a million who really don't matter in the long run.

All that I am saying - Live life, for this day will never come back ever again. Be responsible, so that you will not look on yesterday with a regret, that you did not plan for tomorrow.

If not, the biggest regret will be - I wish I did that when I was young!
Dont confuse being responsible to acting old!

Credits to my dear friend Sam, for some of the thoughts in this.
To life - John

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Appraisal

One word that really does not alter any thing in life, but sure leaves a few sign posts, and gifts those precious moments to take stock, look back, look ahead, whine, dream, crib, praise and importantly give a gentle knock, of what current "reality" is.

Over my working years - I have seen, how this 'appraisal' thing works - seen people crash into reality, zoom off into self righteous oblivion, kill confidence, give wings to fly - all in all - it does something (good or bad being relative).

As an apraisee, had some wonderful moments (all wonderful in their own truest sense), and have helped me move ahead (either leap further, or pull out from a dungeon), and the change over time was good.

As an appriaser, had some wonderful moments too - helped build a few careers, threw off and cleaned some stuff, advice, help, reprimand, and mutually learn.

So far it looked good, till, the way I see how this thing is handled at where I work now - One word - Appalling!

The following are the things I hate about it here, right now:
  1. It's a favour to be done, at best a duty to be fulfilled
  2. Neither process nor the person are important (till now, the worst place I thought was, one which was a sucker for process or people alone, Ahem!)
  3. There are no sign posts that you can take back or look forward too - just another intellectual orgasm, or depending on the mood - pleasurable or painful
  4. Use 'process' to not answer a few straight questions, and 'people' to not answer a few cryptic ones - all it all - there are no answers, and the questions are neither appreciated.

If there are no answers, no questions, no real job to be done, just a favour, no sign posts to look forward to, then why this whole thing called "Appraisal".

The paradox - this still taught something :) Time to move on! - Hopeless Optimist I say!

Rules of the Market

  • You are a loser till you Win!
  • Speculation is not reality
  • What if - is the dirtiest word on the market
  • How can - is ridiculous
  • Patience is an absolute virtue - You don't have patience, get out!
  • Only invest half of your potential
  • Show courage when most tempting to quit
  • Quit when most tempting to get more
  • Knowledge is Power

Monday, December 11, 2006

Dalal Street Bleeds

Whoa! what a day!

It bled all up to my desk :-P

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Correction to the Reward Post

iPods like Girl friends and wives are meant to be loved, not to be understood!

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Reward!

Somebody left a print of this on my desk - Informers to the author will be suitably rewarded.

Girl friends and wives are meant to be loved, not to be understood!

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

And a new day!

The best part of a new day, is "new"

..where you can get past dark nights, and yester years - with a renewed faith that the day will bring in, it's share of joys, highs, learnings and its lows too. What I choose to do with this day, is there for me at the start of the day on a platter.

I wanna take this day, as another gift-of-the-present, get by the past, not really killing today for tomorrow, and just be myself. Give myself just the way I am, and take another self, that's willing to just give what it wants.

To Life - John

Sunday, December 03, 2006

How Sam Describes Me..

  • Intelligent
  • Articulate
  • Database of trivia
  • Sense of humour (Sharp / Word Play / Referential)
  • Hyderabadi
  • Determined when you set your mind to something
  • Hard to define
  • Easy to know
  • Easy to like
  • Easy to hate
  • Easily help
  • Easily collect friends
  • Equally difficult to fall in love
  • Work on the principle that you'll like people unless they prove themeselves unlikeable
  • Careful
  • Calculating
  • Cannot be taken at face value
  • Can be depended upon to get a job done
  • Polite
  • Well brought up
  • Dabbler in a million things
  • Good at your profession
  • Generous
  • Intellectually driven
  • Eager to try new stuff
  • Bored by convention
  • Irritated by the concept of being tied down
  • Elusive
  • Clever with words, people and things
  • Would do anything for those in the close circle
  • Know people better than they know you
  • Intensely private
  • Pride yourself on rarely getting carried away
  • Intensely upset with yourself if you do
  • Dabble in stocks
  • Read voraciously
  • Perfect gentleman
  • Definitely knows how to treat a girl
  • Puts aside pride/ego/self with the people you love
  • When there is a conflict - Moves closer to solve

...

walking through the darkness alone
there is a universe I've known
shiny stars and beautiful sights
rainbows I miss, amidst misty eyes, fading lights

It wasn't that the universe crashed
Its the eyes I miss, to see the same
of what pain, and broken trust
I wish, I wish, I wish Time had frozen
no springs in desert
no tears in heaven
Yet we chase springs in the desert
and theorise about tears in heaven

Fallen down, broken, and shattered
hope shimmers, spirit battered
Yet, the universe spins it course
pain, love and faith - never ending , their discourse

walking through the darkness alone
there is a universe I've known
shiny stars and beautiful sights
shooting stars, wishes I make amidst frights

wading in darkness, a step at a time
little innocuous one I am, before the great expanse, and the might one
I bow in defeat, I bow in shame, next time
Thy will be done, oh my Mighty one

Love, where are you?
Must lose the You, to get the “I”
You get the I, don't loose the “you”
Else, you will be all alone as “I”

walking through the darkness alone
there is a universe I've known
shiny stars and beautiful sights
rainbows I miss, amidst misty eyes, fading lights

Dedicated to myself - to everything - John

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Johnnyboy

Today is the worst day in my life - Never felt so shattered, so lost and so wrecked.
From one moment of absolute happiness, to a moment that pushed me into the Abyss -

I lost to myself!

I only hope, cos some of the best things in life are not deserved, they are given. I received, I gave, but lost it all !

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Confusion

Noun: Confusion kun'fyoozhyn
  1. Disorder resulting from a failure to behave predictably
  2. A mental state characterized by a lack of clear and orderly thought and behavior
  3. A feeling of embarrassment that leaves you confused
  4. A mistake that results from taking one thing to be another

Synonymns:
Disarray
Discombobulation
Mental Confusion
Mix-Up

Type of:
Congnitive State (Whoa!, I like this cognition thingie)
Disorder
Embarassesment
Error
Fault
Mistake
State of Mind

Just a random ride on the Wordweb - Ahem - Interesting!

Amazes me - Does the butterfly effect really work?

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Hidden veils

That’s obnoxious, veils are supposed to hide us! We hide beneath those numerous veils that we adorn at will, carefully knitted over time, civilization, culture acclimatization (in context) and shit loads of other stuff.

I am perplexed at the mutation of the veils. We have taken an indulgent dive; short circuited & mastered the ‘mutating art of hiding a veil’.

A few steps into yester times – it was possible to describe the specific veils a person owned (in a sense), and could associate them to different states of disposition (I refuse to use the word – Mood), and people adorned them to achieve a specific purpose – to show various emotions, degrees of control, sociability levels, and sometimes an aura.

Come now, the evolution of the metro sexual man, the liberated women, empowered individual, the yuppie, the Generation “cool” – so many facets crunched into one single individual! – The result – It’s become a sham to have a veil – (somehow, having a veil always sounded negative!, In the truest sense, I don’t think it is). So, the genesis of the culture of “hiding the veils”.
  • To what lengths, we go to say what we are not?
  • How quickly have our identities changed from “what we are” to “what we are not”. State of disposition is relative, to the immediate locale – we can be the angel personified and the devil raging at the same instance to 2 different people?
  • How often do we say – Look, I am what I am, you like it – great!, and you don’t like it – great!?

We run not to have veils, to hide them, and in the process, run, run, run! Somewhere, at sometime, when we look back, we almost do have neither the self nor the veil, and the veils are hidden into such proclivity that, we hit a void – a void so deep, that we suddenly are back to the state – “Look, I am what I am, you like it – great!, and you don’t like it – great!?”

Sucked in a circle so big, that the instance rules over the moment, the moment over the context, the context over the meaning, the meaning over the definition, the definition over the subject, the subject over life, and we subject everything in life, that we see everything as an instance!

If everything is an instance, then, why should be hide the veils?

I agree that the balance will strike at some point – my question is, what is the price we pay to get to the point of balance?

-To life – Gyaani

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Quest!

Thats the word that rings in my head at this time! -

Quest the way I understood - Search for something, but this quest itched my head to lookup the dictionary, and Ahem! - What a description - "A search for an alternative that meets cognitive criteria".

Now that's something that I like - Did another thing - searched my blog for 'quest' and was suprised @ the results. Each of the blogs are titled differently, but today, I would give them these titles:

The Skeptic - I would call this blog, The Quest for the Quest

There is immense beauty in imperfection! - The Quest for Imperfection

Flipped Mirrors - The Quest for a Reason to Faith!

The Indulgent Mind - So More and No More! - The Ultimate Quest - Flirting on the edge of the Indulgent Mind is tolerance in a platonic relationship; perseverance in romance, patience in courting, ambition in a career, faith in (a relationship with) God. Point in fact - all the words – tolerance, perseverance, patience, ambition, faith are the 5 pillars of something I would call the “Big Quest”.

...besides, I am in a mood to receive lots of compliments - I am bad a fishing in the waters for some, so please be benevolent, and give me compliments :P

How Much Have You Changed in 10 Years?

You've Changed 52% in 10 Years

You've done a good job changing with the times, but deep down, you're still the same person.

You're clothes, job, and friends may have changed some - but it hasn't changed you.

How Evil Am I?

You Are 30% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.

In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

There is immense beauty in imperfection!

Why is that we clamor to have a world that is defined by something as abstract as “perfect”? – It’s the missing details that give the pleasure of enjoying something!

How many times have we resented when every thing is stripped open leaving nothing to the imagination to understand (I mean literally!), and many a times taken it as an insult to our intelligence?

How many times have we hated when someone lay everything threads bare, and ask a poignant question – Don’t you understand?

How many times have we deeply disliked the face with the perfect contour, except for the gasp of the initial reaction of amazement, that we cannot love just the perfect contour?

How many times have we tried to be the perfect mate and hated ourselves for just not being able to be our self?

How many times have we loathed in the boredom that gets generated of perfect pleasure, and seek for the basic indulgence in the ordinary?

How many times do we hate the perfect score, a full cent percent, that we can no longer can look forward for something more, but fiercely guard a vicarious position?

How many times have we hated the perfected sounds that emerge out of a “perfect” audio system, to a point that we are happy at the DJ creating noises scratching the
CD?

How many times have we raised the question, on why this perfection, and wished that an imperfect world was worth all of it?

Imperfection I say is the perfect remedy to this quest!

It’s in the imperfect, that we can clearly see, learn to truly love, give, grow, adapt, cherish, create memories, enjoy the space, appreciate, abate, emote and just live, and not “exist in a seamless perfection that only is perfect in a abstract perfect world”

To imperfection ~ Gyaani
P.S: Credits to Anita, for the tag line!

Monday, October 30, 2006

The Skeptic

One being a skeptic somehow radiates a bad aura, and I often wonder WHY? Taking a pause to look into the eyes of a skeptic – There are a few soft but strong assumptions that we take when we meet a skeptic.
1. We assume the same level of knowledge, coherence and comprehension on the stated belief systems
2. Assume the world view in which the skeptic operates and raises the questions as being the same you are in
3. Assume that the skeptic is infinite in his questions – There is a sense of finality that really drives the skeptic
However, what would make a skeptic, an honest one or otherwise?

I think it’s a simple thing – Are the questions part of the quest for the answer, or the questions an attempt to find a crack in the respondents answer.

I love skeptics (and I am one too sometimes), especially the honest ones – They think, make you think and drive you to seek and attain clarity about the basic tenants that we base our world view and outlook on.

To skeptics, Gnaw it off - Johnny

Humbled!

It's a lil past midnight, and sleeps beckons, but the moment lingers!

I do not know how many times this happens to anyone, but twas a moment, when I felt so humbled, by simple honesty.

Heaving with a puffed chest about a virtuous life, and somewhere along the way snacthed the credit to myself for God's Grace, and a brilliant upbrining, as if it was all mine, and reveling with a feeling of near pride - It was just a moment of honesty, talking with my dearest and best friend, that crushed it all - Just crushed it all!
A moment I felt that, it was most important to get right with God, with myself and with man in the same order.

I feel like I have rediscovered something that was lost, and am filled with Joy and gratitude. God does work in Mysterious ways, and I thank Him for all! For once I am not afraid to give back all the controls to Him. What was I really holding back?" - It was just the question, that was lingering in my head, that I wanted to ask God, and I get the answer for the same through this friend.

To my dear friend, its wonderful to know you, to have met you and count it my previlage to be loved so much, and to love you back that much and more. Never felt so glad before.
There is no more fear, no apprehension and just the wonderful feeling of being back in a completely new way, and rediscovering myself, looking ahead and lots of love.

~ To love - Johnny

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Whoa!

Now this is something thats worth a thought ! (stolen of Arjun's blog)

Everything we do in relationships has some kind of payoff for us. Even when we do unselfish" things, it bolsters our image of ourselves as kind, caring human beings. When we take into account what effect choices will have on others, we become better aware of what consequences our choices will have.

Here's the link

I end on this note: I don't know if I agree or disagree to this, cos, I count it a previlage to have tasted something beyond the above (and for that, thanks to all).

Saturday, October 28, 2006

a pause . . .

Just a Pause . .. ... ....

Time to breathe
Time to deal with
Time to get back to the basics
Time to contemplate
Time to correlate
Time to take time

memoirs ...

http://office99.blogspot.com/2005/10/farewell-john_07.html

http://jhintak.blogspot.com/2005/10/moodsnjohn.html

Friday, October 27, 2006

The culture of "Good News"

I am appalled at the evolution of humans to a culture of delivering “good news” when there isn’t any. Why do we constantly, subconsciously crave and drive ourselves to the point of desolation, just in pursuit of what we perceive as “good news” that we want to deliver, at the primal level to ourselves, in the disguise to a feeling of well being and cool with all the surroundings around us.
Have we forgotten that the basic instinct to survive is to understand what we are? and importantly beyond us as a person, into getting in harmony with the environment around us! That’s what we called as evolution with peaceful coexistence. (and yes harmony does not mean mutating, its just harmony!)

It takes courage to face the truth, more to look into the eye and say the same, and the greatest to say to our “own-self”. Does a disguise of a pretentious refusal of reality, just change the world – No it doesn’t – On the contrary, you loose the very ground you loose one.

What ever happened to the twinkle in the eye at the start of the race, when we all set forth, looking into the sun with hope, of a constant endeavor to work our way through, to finally look back and say – It was a good ride. Do a few clouds burst the bubble – if yes, was the good news - the burst, the bubble or the cloud?
Depending on who we are, and what we are made up of, we equate the “good news” as the brilliant bubble that existed, or the burst of reality that dawned on us, or the cloud that was responsible for the change in the environment. The truth of the matter, we are still on the same ground.

I remember these wonderful lyrics – hmm..

From the day we arrive on the planet
And blinking, step into the sun
There's more to see than can ever be seen
More to do than can ever be done
There's far too much to take in here
More to find than can ever be found
But the sun rolling high
Through the sapphire sky
Keeps great and small on the endless round

It's the Circle of Life
And it moves us all
Through despair and hope
Through faith and love
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the Circle
The Circle of Life

It's the Circle of Life
And it moves us all
Through despair and hope
Through faith and love
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the Circle
The Circle of Life


...and why whine, when there is no “good news” to deliver?– Its still a wonderful world, wonderful life, wonderful being there at the moment. There is a lot more to discover in each other, that we deal with – The world is still a much bigger place. Do we really need to hate “humans” in general?

Reference this blog - Contemplation

To Life - Gyaani

Dashboard @ My Desk

My friend Sam's creativity on the whiteboard, on my desk

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

@ Library

One of those days, when you wanted to reference something, that could help you with your work - and you enter a library.

Now before I go ahead, let me describe my office Library - We have a sitting space to read news papers, a sitting space to read books and magazines, and a 40 seater cyber cafe, so that employees can catch up on any personal mails / browsing or just take a break.

I finish my work and walk by searching for a machine, and find something very amusing!

1. More than 60% of the machines - Webmail (office mail is open) - Huh ? You come all the way to the cybercafe to check the same mails you ran away from?!!!
2. About 10% cross browse (meaning - I see what you are browsing, and you see what I am browsing) - May be this is the internet version of "I pat your back and you pat my back"
3. About 15% - searching for Jobs (hmmm thats better, but the internet access is uses your AD authentication - so what difference does it make if you search for a job from your desk??)
4. The remaining are smiling, typing sweet nothings, catching up on mails, and everytime you pass them, they try to hide the screen - (I felt guilty stepping on their real time off from work)

So, these are my conclusions:
1. People have become Pseudo workoholics - Meaning, they are really not workoholics, but have rotten their head so much, that they run off from the work place to catch up on mails from elsewhere - Actually, they have no work - Else they would not have left their seats

2. People really need to take breaks - It's legal, ethical and just right for you and every one else

3. I like the cross browse thingie - New internet age bonding !! - Way to go

4. Don't be a dumb ass to search for a job on a job portal from the cyber cafe, using your own AD - Better do it from your desk - atleast the message is sent across loud and clear

5. People still go to the library when they need some thing to reference - There is hope - It's still not a completely "googled" world as yet.

To Life - Gyani

Where are the colours?

Hmm.. I wanted a fresh looking computer desktop background, and went about searching for some good images on a few better known sites.

Has the definition of a "good" image been fortified as -
1. It should be something green !
2. Some closeup picture of a blade of grass, a dew drop, or a bird shot with a telescopic lens
3. Empty landscapes
4. Sunset / Sunrises
5. Shilloutes
6. Flowers shot at such close up, that you feel you stripped them naked?

Just want one background image that can brighten up a day! - Is that too much to ask? Huh?

I will start my photography back!

Monday, October 23, 2006

The Spartan Mind – Unsparing and Uncompromising!

This blog is dedicated to me – Why? Cos, I love an intelligent argument!

On a random visit to one of my own blog entries -
The Indulgent Mind - So More and No More!, it stuck me to reason as to, what a counter argument to this can be?
Hidden deep in the recesses of layers of experiences accumulated over the years, as a result of learning, un-learning and re-learning, is a strong impression of a set of rules that need to be honored, zealously safeguarded with spite to anything that remotely suggests indulgence.

The lines are teased, the lines are crossed, and the lines are broken – from when did one take ‘indulgence’ to be a way of life? – It’s the discipline in the now what would define the tomorrow! If the lines were drawn, they had a purpose to it.
As G.K. Chesterton pens it down - “Before you pull any fence down; always pause long enough to find out why it was put there in the first place.”
That brings us to the question – It’s about expanding the horizons that really defines and refines us as we traverse the path of progress. So, what wrong with indulgence?

The milestones along the way, the fences that you see, and the very lines that are crossed, are the ones that were put in place by someone, somewhere, somehow to give a reference point. So, if we uproot the very thing that lends itself as a reference point (good or bad), we will be left with nothing to compare against anything. That would kill anything called ‘indulgence’ – in simple words; it’s a self defeating argument!

Quoting G.K Chesterton again- And the fact that [the revolutionist] doubts everything really gets in his way when he wants to denounce anything. For all denunciation implies a moral doctrine of some kind; and the modern revolutionist doubts not only the institution he denounces, but the doctrine by which he denounces it. Thus he writes one book complaining that imperial oppression insults the purity of women, and then he writes another book (about the sex problem) in which he insults it himself. He curses the Sultan because Christian girls lose their virginity, and then curses Mrs. Grundy because they keep it.

As a politician he will cry out that war is a waste of life, and then, as a philosopher, that all life is a waste of time. A Russian pessimist will denounce a policeman for killing a peasant, and then prove by the highest philosophical principles that the peasant ought to have killed himself. A man denounces marriage as a lie, and then denounces aristocratic profligates for treating it as a lie. He calls a flag a bauble, and
then blames the oppressors of Poland or Ireland because they take away that bauble.

The man of this school goes first to a political meeting, where he complains that savages are treated as if they were beasts; then he takes his hat and umbrella and goes on to a scientific meeting, where he proves that they practically are beasts. In short, the modern revolutionist, being an infinite skeptic, is always engaged in undermining his own mines. In his book on politics he attacks men for trampling on morality; in his book on ethics he attacks morality for trampling on men. Therefore the modern man in revolt has become practically useless for all purposes of revolt.

By rebelling against everything he has lost his right to rebel against anything.

That’s brings to the last point – is there something that exists, which we can call as the “indulgent mind”?
It’s the interplay of the will, the mind and the heart at a slice of time that really defines the moment! – Did I say, define – The Spartan Mind smiles!
To life - Gyaani

Saturday, October 21, 2006

7 Seven 7’s

I have come up with this new theory that life happens in buckets of 7s.

0-7 Yrs
  • You are nurtured
  • Cared for
  • First impressions of likes and dislikes
  • You get your way by kicking and crying
  • Love is being nice to (yourself)
  • Milk teeth fall and …

8-14 Yrs

  • Your grow faster in head as much as in body
  • Learn to care for
  • First strong impressions about anything and everything
  • First crushes
  • Completely new set of opinions about life
  • Voice cracks, final set of teeth
  • Dreams where sky is the limit …

15-21 Yrs

  • Likes and dislikes are redefined
  • Impressions turn into Opinions
  • Crushes are crushed and Love is substantiated
  • Dreams are fortified
  • Responsibility?
  • First taste of frustration …

22-28 Yrs

  • Have an opinion about everything and anythingOpinions are given a dimension of pragmatic realism
  • Frustration fortified
  • Love is revisited, crushes are better
  • Get realistic, dreams are for the losers
  • Responsibility beckons
  • Marriages….?

29-35 Yrs

  • Opinions don’t matter anymore
  • New set of impressions (what ever they are – go back to 0-7 yrs) formed
  • True Love, an illusion
  • Dreams revisited (ahan.. 15-21 Yrs)
  • Dental Gloss (go back to 0-7 yrs)
  • Voice Booms (ala cracks all over again)
  • Frustration fortified
  • Married!

36-42 Yrs

  • Energy Rejuvenated
  • Sharing Experiences?
  • First attempt to write an auto Biography
  • Sweet memories of crushed crushes
  • Should have been following my instinct!!!
  • Revisited decisions of every thing ever did
  • Final Impressions of life remade
  • Love is finalized and sealed forever
  • Responsibility aches

43-49 Yrs

  • Experienced at everything and anything
  • Failed autograph
  • Lasting memories stacked and preserved
  • Rationale was good – Instinct bad – I took the right decisions
  • Final Opinions about life
  • First chance to transfer responsibility
  • Dreams fulfilled

50-56 Yrs

  • Hmm… Life takes a full turn, the start of a second and pitiful childhood, go back to 0-7 yrs sections. Its already 7 times 7

Based on how long you live, it repeats all over again!

Disclaimer:
Due to the inherent differences in the gene pool of species Homo Sapiens (ala we, humans), there can be some extended or decreased periods in the 7 yrs cycles. Some times its admired as brilliant and sometimes spat on as stupid.

To Life - Gyaani

Friday, October 20, 2006

The Colour of Your Blog?

Your Blog Should Be Green
Your blog is smart and thoughtful - not a lot of fluff.

You enjoy a good discussion, especially if it involves picking apart ideas.

However, you tend to get easily annoyed by any thoughtless comments in your blog.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

A taste of reality

I am not the one to burn bridges with haste, but sometimes, I just hate it so much; that at will I can choose to uproot even the mountains that create the need for a bridge.

No Mountains, no bridges, just an open expanse of whatever you call that.

I detest when someone uses me to be the shoulder to fire a gun, and move away with the notion that I would not realize - something that people forget - when you fire a gun - there is a recoil that hits the shoulder, and that does jolt even the dumbest one to know that it was their shoulder, from which the gun was fired.

If you have a question, and chose to ask - be prepared to hear the answer. Why make a mockery of the answer and me? - There was nothing to speak if the question was not asked! - Balls!

Mediocrity reigns and I am tired of people who in general know only one world - 'their world" and make a mockery of everything else that’s not as per the laws of a fictitious world
You wanna live a real life, get real, there is more than one real world!

Today is one of those moments that I feel like uprooting a few mountains - but, I don’t burn bridges that fast. Hope that moment does not come

- Gyani, cos I have worked hard to get it, and I am grateful to the One above for the same.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

My Niece - 1 yr old and blogging

http://firststeps-chikki.blogspot.com/

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Back Home

I am so happy - After the sharp turns and the rocky roads(?), it feels so wonderful to drive @ a cool 40KMPH (yes 40), blissful to meet and spend time with someone close to your heart -

Its Brilliant!

I am happy :)

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Rubber Meets Road

…and things set off! Well, this blog takes off after many days of planning and anticipation for this ay – Travel to the “flag off” point.


Meet the team:
Satya Prakash
aka Praxy – self proclaimed ‘great’ driver, hmm well – he is the best storyteller, with a few adventures in Sri Lanka, the Konkan coast and the Malabar stretch – Phew!

Married, still adventurous and chief planner in this rally…

Moses John Wesley aka Johnny – is a ‘brilliant’ driver, hmm and well, is the author of this blog, and has a few videos to prove his driving skills, driving adventures around Hyderabad and the Western Ghats.

Single, Gyan Giver and chief executioner in this race.

The saga begins -
Shipped “ginger” (the car’s name) about 2 weeks ago. All the time that was saved shipping in advance was lost in waiting in the Delhi Traffic for about 2 hours to cover a distance of 2 KM – Result – the speedometer had lots of work to do.

11:00 A.M Delhi – 35C, sea level
LEG 1 Destination: Chandigarh
Route:Sonepat, Panipat, other pats, Karnal, Ambala Cantt., Kurukshetra,
Distance to cover – 200 KM.

Its Praxy at the wheel, who believes that we need to be united on the road – In simple words, one cannot tell if it’s a Left Side Drive or otherwise in India. The roads were black velvet laid out with plush green fields on one of the sides (whichever you choose to refer it as) and with trees on the other side.

Avg Speed – 100 KMPH
Top Speed – 150 KMPH

Before you can start feeling good about such wonderful roads – they come at a toll price of 135 Rs for this sector.

Well, whoever said India had bad roads, please drive from Ambala to Chandigarh, Praxy managed to keep the meter above 120 for a good 30 minutes, if not more, to say the least, they were ‘silk’


2:30 PM Chandigarh – 33.5 C
Now its time for refueling our stomachs –

On the Menu-
6 Butter Rotis (we can cook about 2 kilos of normal sabji with the butter that was dripping off the Rotis!)
Dal Fry
Aloo Gobi
2 Cool Drinks
2 Gulab Jammon

Brilliant Lunch – 65 Rs (yes 65 Rs)
Money saved for eating in Chandigarh – Rs.225
The feeling – Priceless


3:15 PM Chandigarh – 34 C – 500 ft above Sea Level
LEG 2 destination:
Nearest fuel point
Distance to Cover – 20 KM

Fueled.
IOC Unleaded 87 Octane – 35 liters
Negotiated multiple ghat turns, some risky accent driver and generally overtook vehicles.

Avg Speed – 10 KMPH
Top Speed – 30 KMPH


4:15 PM Outside Chandigarh -33 C – 500 ft above Sea Level
Leg 3 destination:
Shimla (the ascent up the hill and the Ghat starts)
Distance to cover – 120 KM

Its now Johnny at the wheel, driving the way he likes best – playing on the tight curves and ensuring that they are no vehicles in front of his car – It’s just that he likes a clear road ahead. Check out the videos to get a feel.

Avg Speed – 50 KMPH
Top Speed – 80 KMPH


7:15 PM – Shimla – 17 C – 2200 ft above Sea Level
Check into hotel and Blog

Bumper stickers seen today –
“Peepal ki lakdi chandan se kam nahin, shimla shehar bhi London se koi kam nahin”
"God Sive Me” – written on the rim of the front wheel.
“Owner is God”

P.S:
1. No scratches, No Skids
2. Prakash puked
3. Johnny acted smart
4. Prakash shot some amazing driving videos
5. Photos galore

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Of Grammer and Expression

Well - The purpose of language is to get a thought across, in a non obtrusive way and with coherence.

Now - can willful grammatical errors be made to get the desired punctuated effect?

Awaiting comments from readers -
P.S: Anonymous comments enabled for this blog post only.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Flipped Mirrors

How often does one get to see an image of themselves in a mirror, that is flipped - meaning, just looks exactly the same way you are!

Today was one of those days, when I had one of a brilliant conversation I had in a long time.

For varied unspoken reasons, we tread carefully on topics that can touch a few raw pulsating nerves, and these touched nerves sputter blood most often than not.

Sam and I were talking on what is our core belief in GOD? (refrain from using the word religion) as that was not what the point of discussion was.

One question - one answer - two world views - Why does she and I believe in what we believe?

Sam says: The fundamental essence is that - one needs to realize that we are part of the divine being - and its our quest to be part of the same, that takes us through the karmic cycle of life, till the ultimate union with the 'one' is done. In essence, we are part of the one! (meaning there is nothing like an individual - but parts of the "one" trying to reach back to the source)

John says: Hmm, very seldom have I heard someone speak with such precision - In fact I have a similar thought approach - the difference is - that in my belief system – the individual and the God have an identity of their own and hence a community and love originates. Therefore, heaven and hell come into context - The individuality is retained. There in originates the need for salvation of man.

We paused on a note saying - whoa - does the Truth change just because we believe in different view points? Truth is absolute!

How wonderful to speak with such freedom, expressing your view points and not thrusting your belief. In each of the sentences spoken, your core beliefs are questioned and you see yourself back in a "flipped" mirror.

How often does one get to see an image of themselves in a mirror, that is flipped - meaning, just looks exactly the same way you are!

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Do we really learn?

Do we really learn?

That’s a question that stops us in the Way… Do we really learn?

In a short conversation with one of my friend - she says - we are what we are and just a ramification of time, that we layer ourselves into something that we have learnt – we basically are born the same – and that’s what we are.

I was beginning to wonder if Richard Dawkins of Oxford university was right – Are we all dancing to our DNA (Note: He made this statement in the context of debating the moral law – Just borrowing the words – not the intended context)

In this context (quoting Nietzche)- Man has been educated by his errors:
  • He never saw himself completely
  • He bestowed fictitious attributes upon himself
  • He placed himself uppermost in a false scale of rank in relation to animals and nature
  • He invented and reinvented new tables of goods and always presumed them, at least for a time, to be eternal and conditional.

As a result of these, on and then another human drive and state held first place and was venerated because it was regarded so highly. If we were to eradicate the effects of these four errors, we would also eradicate humanity, humaneness and “human dignity”

Words have lost it meaning – the power play of words is a ploy that we use to convince someone of what we believe, by essentially depriving them of the power to understand the same –

Basic Purpose of words – is to communicate the feeling and the thought – The power play of words be rifts of these two –

Now I ask a different question – If we learnt- what is that we really learnt?

Loooooooooong time no post

Hmmm...thats the feeling I have...looooooooong time no blog posts -some 6 blogs in progress and...none that are complete . :(

At the end of a reaaal long week - I can already see myself having to run to the airport early in the morning, to welcome another new? week....another looooooooooong one...

Last one month - been a rider - work - think about work - more work - and..almost a month since I read anything meaningful, till my friend says -if ever you start reading in life... !! Ahem!!

Now - I feel tempted to sit through and publish a few blogs, wrap a few books, but a lil question knocks - for what - what are you trying to prove ?

---- News Announcement ----
I am competeting in the Himalayan Race - 2000+ KMS of endurance race - Ice - Turns and twiset- Really looking forward to it - May be I will come back a better person.....NAH :P

To myself - Live life johnny boy!!

P.S: I am reading :P

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

What Time Of Day Are You?

You Are Noon

You are upbeat, ambitious, and never at loss for energy.

You have a lot that drives you in life. The desire to be the best, and a secret hope of fame and power.

And while you definitely have a Type A personality, you are still fun to be around.

You have a ton of charisma and a genuine interest in others. You are adored by many.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

You Are 80% Grown Up, 20% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.

Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

I ask

I ask - cos I hate to assume
I ask - cos its hard to understand mixed emotions
I ask - cos you have a right for a choice
I ask - cos I am not sure sometimes
I ask - cos it your right to demand and ask
I ask - cos its the way I am - always asking

When I sit and think of it - in all of the asking, I give too - It sounds like I am not giving - but in reality, I have already given - just waiting for a 'yes' or a 'no'

I still ask - can I not ask?

Friday, August 25, 2006

Inside the Room of Your Soul

What Your Soul Really Looks Like
You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget.
You are not a very grounded person. You prefer dreams to reality. For you, it's all about possibilities.
You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you.
Your near future is likely to be filled with great successes and accomplishments. You just need to figure out how to get there.
For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Contemplation...

Much of our life is spent in trying to make things happen; things that we need somewhere deep. When these very things do happen, we get caught in a tangle - wondering if that was what we wanted and many a time kill the same things that we made happen. In the process, expecations rise, emotions surge and a few things get built and a few things get broken.....and... then we return to the same thing - "things that we need somewhere deep".

The circle continues..

Sometime or most times, all it takes is that we let accept the fact that we made things happen and ensure that either - we take responsibility for things made and care for them, or let remain and let the things we cherish for to happen in the natural course.

There are many a things that cannot be realised unless outside a full commitment, most often a life time is too short.

The bottom line - The greatest truths are the simplest and the simplest are the most difficult to comprehend. The answers are simple, it's us who complicate the questions.
Something that I wrote a year ago...and suddenly popped up.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

How much of everything and anything?

How high is high enough?
How deep is deep enough?
How long is long enough?
How wide is wide enough?
How intense is intense enough?
How passionate is passionate enough?
How far is far enough?
How close is close enough?
How sweet is sweet enough?

...and now of the not 'deeper' things

How shallow is shallow?
How misty is misty?
How trivial is trivial?
How hollow is hollow?
How bitter is bitter?
How crazy is crazy?
How coloured is coloured?
How naive is naive?
How lighter is lighter?

9 things of how(s) that surge the depths and 9 things of how(s) that scratch the surface?

How much do we keep doing these 'how(s)', How ? How? How?

a comment worth a blog..

This is a comment I posted on my friends blog, and feel the comment itself can be a blog..:P

Reasoned Cryptic (ism) is about locking few details to be opened by a jealous one, that gives the feeling of “discovering” that they are being thought of, and given lots of attention, while at the same time, letting go of the leash, unbridled – for that endless space (well !?), which makes both smile – though for different reasons – and the reasons render themselves in a cloud of mysterious (ness). At this Juncture, do words start failing, and self preservation comes to the foray, with tears washing, and flowing – you wonder if there is something really called being Selfish (cos, the moment you think you have got it all for you, you really have discovered that - through a lots of variables that make define being selfish) – oh how can lots render to be “selfish” – and these thoughts mush the brain to make one Gooey, and feel that its always been ‘Love’ - All these put together sound weird – really – IS IT?

Monday, August 21, 2006

The Five Factor Values Test

Your Values Profile

Loyalty:

You value loyalty a fair amount.
You're loyal to your friends... to a point.
But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties.
Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself.

Honesty:

You value honesty a fair amount.
You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it.
If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it.
In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity."

Generosity:

You value generosity highly.
So much so that you often put your own needs last.
There's nothing wrong with having a caring heart...
But you may want to rethink your "open wallet" policy.

Humility:

You value humility highly.
You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are.
And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better.
You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low.

Tolerance:

You value tolerance highly.
Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you...
You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends.
You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

well... Blog thing says so..

You Are: 30% Dog, 70% Cat

You and cats have a lot in common.

You're both smart and in charge - with a good amount of attitude.

However, you do have a very playful side that occasionally comes out!

Sunday, August 20, 2006

More of Nagarjuna Sagar





hmm...

Trip to Nagarjuna Sagar

180 KM - 120 Mins - 27 Flood Gates open - 2 crazy souls - lots of water...thats the story


That's Steve - The Photographer - Some one back @ my office is drooling ...


Entrance to the Power Station - For Once Engineers got lucky :P




Water ...water ...more water..





Yours Truly --

New Love...


Need say any more... ?

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Some old photos of mine that I discoverd..Mumbai Calling

I was smiling in Mumbai???...phew!...working non-stop for 40 hours was a norm !!...I am happy...that I had got moments to smile :)

That was one hell of a party - what a Night

That was before the 'spirits' lifted


The last meal with Arjun in Mumbai - Farewell John :) (read my farewell comments :P)




..but why..

I am the guy who refrains from asking questions like WHY, WHAT or WHAT IF -cos I believe that these give more answers and not formulate the actual question! - What really matters is - "what the real question is!"

This is what I mean - http://thatsthinking.blogspot.com/2006/01/and-here-is-answer.html

..but..once a while you are still force to tread upon things that you don't like, and here are some that I am forced to tread!

WHY is it that the 'same thing' if done by 'me' becomes disdaintful and the same by some other, an expression of coy(ness), fun or something that need not be taken too hard?

WHY does the clock tick slower when it comes to 'me' waiting and does not take into account that there can be equal expectations, or hurt; but the clock ticks faster when someone else is waiting?

WHY is that being a guy means, that you need to forebear and smile, and not okay to feel sad, but its legal and beautiful to indulge in all the same if you are a girl?

WHY is that a guy should always make the move first?

WHY is being straight taken as being unromantic?

WHY is not being analytical or strategic in a realationship (I hate those words) taken as a state of emotional foolishness ?

WHY... WHY... WHY?

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Expanding the horizons

This is something that I wanted to do for a long time, and finally have set my mind on doing this.

I want to have 3 more blogs: (For those who dont want to remember the URLs - Click on "view complete profile" and you can see the blog links.

Gyan@Gyanibaba
http://gyanithink.blogspot.com
This blog will be the vehicle on which I will gyan ride. I hope that this turns to be an interactive blog, where I will attempt to answer any questions posed in the work / professional / etc realm.

I want to get back into a thinking groove. Thinking is what defines me.

Reasoned Belief
http://faiththink.blogspot.com
I am not a religious Joe, but deeply spiritual. Being born into a religion, we live by it without questions; I believe most of us have never taken time to understand what we believe! The result – if someone even tries presenting a different view, we shut the doors fiercely protect something we have NOT taken time to understand!

I am a Christian by choice and not because I was born into a “Christian Family”. Here is my attempt to say – Why I believe in what I believe!



Tickle Thyself
http://funnyrib.blogspot.com

Need say more? Just laugh!! :P

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Monster Me !!

Your Monster Profile

Merciless Hunter

You Feast On: Armadillos

You Lurk Around In: Candy Factories

You Especially Like to Torment: Cops

Friday, July 28, 2006

Will You Be a Multimillionaire?

Your Chances of Being a Multimillionaire: 80%

You have a good chance of being a multimillionaire. Better than most people.

You simply have a natural knack for money and the personality for success.

How Sinful Are You?

I know someone who will Definitely agree with this chart :P

Your Deadly Sins
Greed: 40%
Gluttony: 20%
Lust: 20%
Wrath: 20%
Envy: 0%
Pride: 0%
Sloth: 0%
Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%
You'll die in a castle, surrounded by servants.

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

You Are a Natural Flirt

Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt.And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting.

Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt.

And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive!

How Brutally Honest Are You?

You Are 80% Brutally Honest

Most of the time, you tell it like it is. Even if it's hard for people to hear.

Sometimes you hold back though, because you never want your honesty to be hurtful.

Emotional Intelligence Quotient

The Reason I post this - "Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. - HAHAHAHAHHA

Your EQ is 180
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!

51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.

71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.

91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.

111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

..and I am happy!

In the running mills of time, engaged in an endless race to outperform yourself, and missing out the beautiful scenery on the road by being more bothered about the time lost in braking, comes a pause…

A pause where time stands still, every worry disappears, feel so happy and contented… and you wonder why?

When I think, it knocks on me that – today is one of those days, when I am so relaxed, content with myself, happy for everything I have & dont, and live without any expectation!. I want to write a lot, but some things just need to be indulged and lived ...and Thank You Sam for making the morning so wonderful.

…and I am Happy!

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Are the lines really that blurred?

This blog is dedicated to the “warrior of cognition” – Sarbani. One with whom I could not agree on anything professionally, but still a good friend.


Cognition” - I say is one bad word!

Coming from the world I lived for the last 5 yrs of work – that’s one risky statement to make - enough to piss off someone who would swear by the word and can kill to retain its meaning – You see that’s how I define Cognition.

We continually measure everything against some arbitrary line that exists (don’t know where), but it does!, and we have our reasons for the same. Assuming that this line exists, are the lines really that blurred?

I guess not – No line is blurred, it either because we see (focus) past the line or before that line, that the line per se appears blurred. For Example – if I were to say – that “cognition is a bad word!”, where does it become bad or good? The way I see as being blurred is “the psychological result of perception and learning and reasoning”

So, we make the lines blurred bases on “the psychological result of perception and learning and reasoning”. BTW – That’s the definition of cognition.


Need say more? – Yes, “Cognition” - I say is one bad word!

Monday, July 17, 2006

..and I am smiling

It feels so nice to smile, and I am smiling a lot - off late. It's brilliant how the smallest of things can make one smile.

In the hustle and bustle of life, there comes a person, who makes you smile, and thoughts of whom make you smile.

I feel @ peace and am happy :)

a small sms extract for the smile today -

ww - Good Morning Sweetie ... there is a smile missing in the office today...
xai - :) for you !

------- need I say more?

Friday, July 07, 2006

Doing over being

We are living today in a culture of Doing over Being. We rush from one thing to the next, from one achievement to another - often not so much enjoying our achievements as registering them and hopping to the next task - never stopping to take a step back, look at our life as a whole; examine it; reflect on the general shape and direction we would like to give it; take a deep breath and be.

This obsession with doing is something of a cultural neurosis: by doing and doing and doing, we escape from being - we do our lives away. It is this meaningless rushing about, without any thought given to any final ends or general purpose that we should condemn.


Wondering who penned this - Socrates - Somewhere in the BC. Sounds like he wrote now!

Monday, June 26, 2006

The Indulgent Mind - So More and No More!


This blog is dedicated to my dear friend, who calls herself 'the goddess'. One who chooses to be an indulgent pessimist, but an absoulte optimist at heart.


It keeps on ringing - so very often, in every one’s mind – “So More and No More”, the lines are continually drawn – a line that somehow just about dictates an invisible boundary. It’s a boundary that ‘the will’ imposes and it’s the boundary ‘the will’ is teased to cross.

Flirting on the edge of the Indulgent Mind is tolerance in a platonic relationship; perseverance in romance, patience in courting, ambition in a career, faith in (a relationship with) God. Point in fact - all the words – tolerance, perseverance, patience, ambition, faith are the 5 pillars of something I would call the “Big Quest”.

So what is this “Big Quest” that pushes the
indulgent mind into the foray?

Dormant in the deepest recesses of the “cerebellum - the cradle of an ever evolving self”, are the impressions made right from the time; you are still a thought in a few dewy eyes. Impressions (...that can be erased, remade or fortified), that concretize the foundations of Tolerance, Perseverance, Patience, Ambition and Faith!

With every passing moment, a slice of an experience - an experience in terms of a measure of any of the above 5 pillars is created in its own concoction. It never is a uniform concoction – and it better never be! So with every newer slice of experience being added layer over layer (hence the deepest recesses) in the mind, each of the pillars receives their own proportion of concrete to build. Hence the 5 pillars are never ever all equal –and there by originate the need to continually draw the line. By inherent nature, we are designed with a sense of balance and equilibrium, and yearn to get this balance all the time.

At this point enter - people & environment, the creators of various slices of experiences – and based on what we experience at moments of time, snowballing into periods of time, into phases, our disposition is set on what out look we take. So, do we say – that we are nothing but a helpless molding of a set of experiences that we are not probably in full control of? No! – though we are a product of experience, something that determines what we still do – is the line that we choose to draw- Yes – The Will. If there is one thing that can overrule any slice of an experience and the natural impact of it – it’s the will. The will to choose and the will to say – “So More and No More”.

What about freedom – So am I a prisoner of my own self? Freedom of the will is not fully absolute in an absolute sense, but with in a boundary, yes fully absolute!

“Freedom is the will to be responsible to ourselves”-Friedrich Nietzsche

After all this, what really matters – is the present state of disposition that we choose to indulge in, despite. That’s where the indulgent mind really is the foray. Logic, reasoning, experience, pressure or hurt still would not make us do what I would call is a “natural reaction” to a situation, but the “Big Quest” is what dictates this state of the indulgent mind.

So More and No more, simple, in spite of all the reasons why we continually draw those lines, the simplest and the greatest of pleasures are derived in extending the boundary – We draw another “So More and No More”, just his time, we would have increased the breadth.

What is it that makes us do this – it’s apparent and need not be stated!

It STILL keeps on ringing - so very often, in every one’s mind – “So More and No More”, the lines are continually drawn – a line that somehow just about dictates an invisible boundary. It’s a boundary that ‘the will’ imposes and it’s the boundary ‘the will’ is teased to cross.

Monday, June 19, 2006

What we want ...continues

I am amazed that my previous blog received such sharp reactions - a couple left the comments, but more called and expressed their "views".

Why does it become so hard to accept something that is not the "perceived" image of a person ? My question still continues - What we want?.. and spent a good 3 hour trying to gather my thoughts - this sentence sums it all.

“Freedom is the will to be responsible to ourselves”
-Friedrich Neitzsche

Monday, June 12, 2006

What we want..

I started writing this blog 2 days ago, and all that I wanted to say, comes out in this one statement -

We do not know what we want and yet
we are responsible for what we are
- that is the fact.
- Jean-Paul Sartre

Need I say more ?

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Things that fail are over-managed and under-led

If only I replaced the word “Things”, with a word like “Organizations” or “Relationships”, it would have ‘won’ a better acceptance.

Why is that we cannot accept the fact that - Things that fail are over-managed and under-led. To start with, we have invested a great deal of time and energy (Ya that’s the word); to take control of things and ‘make’ them happen. In the process, of ‘making’ things happen, we loose the sense of wonder and awe, that is so vital to fortifying the good feel about what we do. No wonder, now ‘make love’, ‘work in a relationship’, ‘have an agenda for a coffee’, ‘define levels of freedom (ah! this is the worst)’, ‘intent becomes important than the gesture’ and ‘quality of life more important that living itself’.

Battling with the ever growing age, and 20 odd years of learning, we have already lost a major sense of awe and wonder. The normal no more excites, the chirping of the bird is too shrill to be noticed, and a simple smile renders to an analysis of the denture set and the colour of the lipstick, or a question pops up – why the smile? (Did you smile at this, NO! – You see, that’s what I mean).

If I do not manage, how can I ensure things go well? To answer that, let me take off on a tangential direction. Let’s recall, things that have really worked well – and ask the simple question – How much of the success was a result of ‘managing’ and how much of that was because we ‘allowed it to flow ~ala led’ and did some few things to ensure that the flow was in the direction we wanted.

Question: Is there a difference?
Answer: I bet there is – You are not forcing this to happen.

The ability to lead something, make the following assumptions:

1. You know what you want and are clear about it. (knowing and being clear about it are two different things)
2. You have understood the intricacies of the thing you want to lead
3. You are ready to accept that things in as is condition and then lead through a series of steps to better it to get your desired results
4. You appreciate the diversity that exits and tries to unify it.
5. You are passionate and convinced about what you are going to lead (not the end result)

When you manage – We make the following assumptions:


1. This thing is going wrong and needs to be corrected (very subtle right in the beginning and will evolve to greater measure as time goes by)
2. It does not matter what the genetic make up it is made of – here are the rules and here is the accepted norm
3. Results matter than the path
4. You always got a bad deal to start with – and now you have to clear the mess
5. what passion – get on with it

Both approaches have the same net driver – to better things.

One which is led (successful or not) leaves an experience worth a learning and a result worth a mention, the other when managed (successful or not) leaves a bad taste, that needs to be MANAGED all over again.

At the end of the day, result or no result, by either approach - Things that fail are over-managed and under-led.
Ah! Yes, let me add, the definition of failure fails
when we look in this paradigm.

Friday, May 19, 2006

“A short Term View” Vs. “A Long Term View”–Part 2

The problem with a sequel is that, if be-rifts an open acceptance, and imposes a benchmark, many a times which is in the mind of the reader – John, -2006

Here comes my part 2 of this blog.

God

Well, he knows all things, eternity to eternity. Some how, many a time, God seems so real – you can feel him, guide you and he is there in every step of your way – and some times, you just feel that He is up there; a real long way up.

Times when we look back and count the many blessings God has bestowed on you, we are puffed with a deep sense of satisfaction, and in the next moment – dismiss God out of our life, when a simple thing that you wanted did not happen.

These simple words in a prayer sum it all (adapted from RZIM)

Human Prays:
Your ways mystified me O lord, Oh Yes, in some journeys I feel you all the way, never doubted, but sometime you seem to vanish half way of that journey.

At other times, you appear to me in the very last moment and you know Lord, sometimes I actually fear that you will let me go over the edge

God Responds:
You are very Unique my Child, and I will help you learn of me with that uniqueness in mind,

You see, if I took every body all the way –Where is the room for their Faith?

If I took every body, more than half the way? Where is the room for their Love?

If I did not let you at times even feel abandoned, Where is the room for my Cross (Gods Salvation).

You are not what you will someday be, I Am who I Am! And I know how to get you from who you are to who I am, if you do not understand this, where is your hope?

A Day will come, Strength to Strength and From Glory to Glory, sometimes you will sense him half way through a tragedy, at other time you will come through in the last moment, Some days you might say, you let me go over the edge, and He says to you, Will you please understand not just my purposes, but my methods. We need His Knowledge; we need to understand His purposes. We need to understand His methods.

The point in fact is, can we ever by worrying about anything add or dictate one single moment of the future?

For the eternal optimist (Long termer) – Future is secure, as s/he looks at God to be in control, but does every thing in his/her strength to better things for the future. S/he hopes, plans, dreams, strives, pushes hard, longs and does many a things in a way that, all future is dependent on him/her. The Optimist is ever busy in the day, thinking of the future and bettering it.

For the hopeless pessimist – the present needs to be secured, and does not believe too much in a God who can secure his/her future and so does every thing in his/her strength to better things for the future. S/he hopes, plans, dreams, strives, pushes hard, longs and does many a things in a way that, all future is dependent on him/her. The Pessimist is ever busy in the day, thinking of the future and bettering it.

Wait – Both sound the same. YES!, in fact they read the same word to word – It’s very simple – One sees the Doughnut, the other sees the hole.

Relationship

Ahem! ... the climax is always what we look for!

I wish, I knew that it would end like this – I would have not have indulged in this….what a waste of time, and what a waste of energy. Honestly, it all sucks!... Men are bastards or Women bithces!...

After all this, is this what you give me…is this how much you understand me?

Honey, Love you… you are so……… words fail, the twinkle in the eyes says it all…

My Love – I wish it’s this like for ever…

How many times do we hear this and all of it drives to one single point – how it all ends?

We oscillate between a world of “intent” and “fact”. How we interpret intent and how we interpret fact, and in which order, define the prognosis of many a relationships.

From a “short term view”, feelings are tinctured and a few breaths missed, when one is asked or not asked out, or that one special gesture is done one not. it’s the joy or the sorrow of the moment that defines the feeling. It’s the feeling that takes precedence and the indulgence that brings the Joy. The fact that we can trust the person with the gesture, embrace it and react to it, to ensure that we look forward for a wonderful time ahead is such a wonderful thing.

From a “Long term view” – Hey Hang on, what’s this guy’s or girls’ intent in saying this? Why does s/he have to do this. Are his/her’s intentions right, what if they are wrong? I want to absolutely make sure that that we can trust the person with the gesture, embrace it and react to it, to ensure that we look forward for a wonderful time ahead is such a wonderful thing.

Wait – Both sound the same. YES!, in fact they read the same word to word – It’s very simple – from moment to moment, we switch and oscillate between these two views, both tending to the same end, but look at the difference!

So after all this, should we conclude that the eternal friction of “short term”Vs. “long term” needs to keep spoiling our “present” day? I believe, if we just take one breath back, and see what view we are adopting at that point in time, that makes all the difference.

In conclusion:
It’s the oscillation that keeps the air moving, the fluctuation that keeps the heart throbbing, and it’s the non-constancy of things that make them interesting. One thing that’s absolute is that -the variables of an absolute paradigm are relative.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

“A short Term View” Vs. “A Long Term View”–Part 1

It’s the oscillation that keeps the air moving, the fluctuation that keeps the heart throbbing, and it’s the non-constancy of things that make them interesting. One thing that’s absolute is that - the variables of an absolute paradigm are relative.

Many a time, we look at things from quote-unquote perspectives called “A Short Term View” and “A long Term View”. The interplay of these two views juggle us up with some of our deepest desires, wants, needs, goals and influence how we react, talk and behave at a moment of time. A simple conflict of these views unleashes a plethora of emotions, events and shape up what we are.

I want to deal with this topic on 4 planes: Career, Family, God and Relationships (In alphabetical Order)

Career

Ahem!...at last you got the one Job you cherished for, and have landed in the “dream” job that goes in line with your over all aspirations, your Large Grander plan and fills your lungs with excess air to make you give those big Sighs of jubilation or relief .

OR

You seemingly made a compromise to get in a job, so that you really want to use this time, to make things fall in line with your over all aspirations, your Large Grander plan and fills your lungs with excess air to make you give those big Sighs of relief.

Hold on, it sounds that same right, in fact reads exactly word to word. Then how come one instance leaves you with a feeling of “good” and another with a feeling of “Dirt”? Yup, in one you take a Long term view, and feel that things are fallen in place, and you are heading in the planned direction and in the other, you have taken a short term view and apparently “compromised” but still heading in the same planned direction.

The fact is we are still heading out in the same direction – except the roads might have got a lil rougher – But both are still headed in the same direction called “Progress”. The only difference – is a case of applied “Sour Grape” variable – We invariable measure our progress relative to what some one or how some one is doing – and the feeling is a “Sour Grape”. – Point in fact – Still headed in the same direction – Enjoy the ride and discover new things along the way – Sound Stupid – Taste this – Assume you have a Bloody Bitch (or dog) of a Boss – you hate him/her….makes life miserable.

Short Term View: Kill the boss, Kick the dirt, spit fire, and indulge in self appreciation.
Long Term View: this Boss is teaching me what not to become, shows me how bad things can go…and above all gears you for better challenges…. Oh my God…does this sound Positive…well it works occasionally to flip the view.

Family

Hmmm…that’s how things start when you want to speak about family. Somehow, there never seems to be one coherent point between “I” in the cool generation, and between “them” from yester years. (And how fast ppl can move from the cool generation to Yester years :P), and surprising we all co-exist (dinn get a better word). It’s like; you can’t stop cribbing, but still long to be in the same environment to crib.

You want to go Hiking, and your parents think you might have difficulty raising your son – cos you might break your leg, get impaired, and thus affect your ability to earn…blah..Blah…. Hang on! you probably don’t even have a steady going Girl / boy Friend……and after topping the “To be Prayed for” list in you family for several months, sense dawns on us to look at life from a real long term view, and we start planning…and…say –

You say to your parents, I have thought hard…and…this is the “sense” I got in – I want to go to XYZ University, study, become big ….blah blah….and you get a response….like “Are you Crazy”....remember you will not be young for long…enjoy life….take risks… ..get married… Huh?

The point in fact – Both parties take and either view at every single point of time, including the time every one in the family agrees on something (each are agreeing to a different thing than what you have agreed for). It’s this difference of view points that really bring the balance…and all of us are heading forward….long term!

This ends the part 1 … I will write about God, Relationship and the conclusion to this after a couple of days